I have been blessed with some phenomenal teachers, teachers through out my life that have inspired me, humbled me and some times just left me awe. There are teachers that I have been fortunate enough to spend years with and some that just come and go for a moment. I think of these coincidences as little tests from the universe, to see see if I am present and paying attention. The universe is always opening doors for us, opportunities but sometimes there is so much going on...
I love maps, I love to know what to expect, what to plan for and who I need to be in a situation. However lately my lessons have seemed to have the message look at the terrain, stop looking at the next step. Another way to phrase this would be to trust that it will all unfold perfectly and to just let go. The greatest lesson of course, is that I only need to be me in any situation. I don't need to do anything, just be.
I noticed today in yoga just how much struggle there is around this idea. The teacher gave us a cue to follow our hand with our eyes, moving in an arc in front of us. I had a rough time with this simple motion, my eyes would literally jump in front of my hand, to the final destination. I finally had to really slow down my breath, close my eyes for a moment, block out the world and just focus on my hand. I stopped the movement and just observed my hand, making new introductions to my eyes and my hand.
I locked on to my right hand, took my attention to the blood flow and just observed. I noticed all the little tremors and shaking that I have developed in the last year, the strength of the natural curve of my hand, that I needed to cut my nails, and finally my fingerprints. Then my eyes quickly jumped to the teacher to see what I was “missing.” The class had switched hands at that point and so I did my best to really follow my left hand with my eyes, to gently bring them back when I found them jumping to the destination.
Right now, I have no map, I have only the terrain. There is only the trust that others have walked this path before me, that the destination can be reached. I know the destination, I know what I want and so while I keep that firmly in my mind’s eye it is time to gently bring my eyes back to the terrain. Looking for the map, makes me tense, jumpy and disconnected, so it is time for some simple introductions to the terrain to begin. One breath at a time, one step at a time and one word at a time, gently coming back to the here and now.
Question of the day: How do you remain focused on the journey, when it is through the wilderness?