Friday, August 30, 2013

Great advice

Tomorrow we are having a very important visitor.  I have been cleaning like crazy and running around like a basket case.  (This just proves Adam and I are made for each other because he is my anchor when I get like this, he finds some way to keep me grounded.) 

Anyways a good friend gave me a great piece of advice:  "Clean your house, bake some cookies and just be yourself!"  I think this is a wonderful piece of advice no matter what the situation, but I still wrote it on a post it note and put it on my mirror.  I am sure to see this advice tomorrow, and smile. Thank you Kelsey!

Question to consider: What is your favorite dish to serve to guests?  I usually make something with green chile, since not many people in Texas are familiar with it.  But for tomorrow it will be chocolate chip cookies and zucchini bread. 

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Number 21

I picked up a special CD the other day.  I have had this cassette tape since I was a little girl, it has followed me to college, to California and to Texas.   The tape is of my Grandfather reciting children's stories about Patty and Wilbur Roly Poly.  I remember falling asleep to this tape so many times and today I heard his voice for the first time in years.   I am so glad that I now have this recording better preserved.  Now I just have to make some copies before the family reunion!

Question to consider: What sounds did you fall asleep to when you were a child?


Number 13 (2 & 3)

So one of our good friends read my list of 33 things before 33 and decided to raise the bar on number 13 and encourage us to try 33 new restaurants in Houston this year.   (I also decided I should add "order room service" and "upgrade seats on a flight."  Those are two things I have never done, I am ignoring the one time we ordered room service because I was ill and that was the only option.) 

Anyways we recently have tried two new restaurants Eatsie Boys and The Black Labrador.  Eatsie boys used to be a food truck, and last weekend Sterling got to hang out with us on the patio.  He was mostly interested in a lizard that was hiding in a bush.  But it is great to find two restaurants we can take Sterling to.   He hasn't gone to the Black Labrador yet, but we saw a couple of dogs sitting outside as well. 

I can't wait until the weather gets a little cooler and we are able to spend more time outside. 

Question to consider: As fall gets closer what are you most looking forward to? 

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Gratitude

It is hard to know when a journey began, it is hard to see the curves in your path.  However, two years ago today my path took a huge curve, and my blueprint was torn up.  I was recovering from an emergency surgery and fighting an infection.

There have been so many instances in the last two years where I have thought it was a mistake that I survived that whole ordeal.  There have been so many moments when I have wondered "why?"  

Today in yoga class I felt grateful for the sharp curve my path took.  I  mean really grateful.  I watched Adam perform a sequence that is simply amazing!  He has changed in so many ways and he has gotten so much stronger.  Two years ago he placed his hand on my head and told me it was going to be okay.  I felt terrified, and he helped me to feel some trust before I went into surgery.  Today I am amazed at the person he has blossomed into.   (I wish I had a photo, but take my word for it; he is beautiful, graceful and strong.)

It is difficult for me to see all the ways that I have changed in the last two years.  But I see all the changes Adam has gone through, I see his strength, his compassion and his spirit.   I see the life we have created together, and even if it wasn't my blueprint it is amazing

I gave Adam a hug after class and I could feel his heart beating and I wondered "how I could ever wanted to miss out on this?"  "How can I feel anything but gratitude for the life I have?"  

Question to consider: What are you grateful for today? 


Monday, August 26, 2013

Limiting beliefs

We have been talking in one of my classes a lot about limiting beliefs and the importance of challenging the ideas that keep you from growing.  

I kept seeing this yoga pants and admiring them every time I went to class.  But I never tried them on, because of this internal dialog that told me "Lenore doesn't wear pants like that, people will notice you." So I challenged that belief.  Not only did I buy them, but I wear them!  I wear all the time, and guess what I love them.

I really don't care if other people don't get it, but these pants make me smile.

Question to consider: when is the last time you challenged your internal dialog? When is the last time you challenged a limiting belief?  (As a side note, people do comment on these pants whenever I wear them.). 

Sunday, August 25, 2013

Sterling Sunday

Sterling was feeling left out of the conversation with Adam's dad this week.  I tried to get a picture of him nudging the phone, but it didn't work.

Thursday, August 22, 2013

Celebrations!

Time to enjoy some cupcakes!  There was a celebration today with my volunteer class after we were sworn in at the local courthouse.  I start volunteering on Tuesday.

Question to consider:  What combination of cupcake and frosting would you chose?  I went with the double chocolate, though I was tempted to take the yellow cupcake with chocolate icing. 

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Simple

Last night/today I watched an old movie, Heart and Souls.   This movie is about 4 souls attached to a businessman that have a short amount of time to do that one thing they missed out on.  To do that one thing they missed out on.  

I won't spoil the movie, for those that haven't seen it.  (It is available on Netflix)

But it does make me think about all the things I haven't done or would like to do that I haven't done because of fear.  Fear paralyzes me; so I am grateful that I have some teachers that are reminding me to ask the question "what do you want?"

Some days I have a very simple answer to that question, and some days I make it more complicated.  Honestly, I am happy.  Life is going well and I am just really grateful for the simple days.  

Question of the day: What three things are you grateful for today?   I am grateful for my breath, Adam and Sterling. 

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Small paintings

I have been making some bookmark paintings lately.  Here is just an example of one.  I find the smaller scale less intimidating.  Painting is helping me learn about colors and I love that I can usually paint over my mistakes.  It is a little more forgiving than my glass beads.  

I am still looking for the inspiration to get back to my torch.  I may have found a challenge today that will give me that extra drive I need to get to the torch.  I also am trying to decide if I want to take a week long class, so I need to get my skills back up.  I haven't made a bead since December.  

Question to consider: Do you find smaller scale projects less intimidating?  I have been putting off getting new curtains and blinds for the living room, because it seems like such a large project.  I really struggle with how permanent larger things are.   I wonder if that is just because of the extra time investment. 

Monday, August 19, 2013

Mangoes and blueberries

Dinner was simple but I got to share it with Adam.  On hot days I really don't feel like cooking, but I just think about how hard Adam works during the day and I am happy to make sure he gets a good meal.  We just had eggs and green chile and some fruit.  Now it is time to sit on the couch take care of our neurotic dog.  

I am just grateful that Sterling is feeling better, even if he is crazy.

Question of the day:  Do you find that your appetite decreases in the summer time, or is it just me? 

Friday, August 16, 2013

Dark paintings

Yesterday I bought a bunch of canvases!  I am going to need more paint.  Today I started working on a painting in my sketch book, because I am pretty intimidated by the size of the the canvases I bought.  Also it is a dark painting and I don't think I want it displayed.  But the idea wouldn't leave me alone so I decided to get the idea on paper instead of letting it fester.  

As much as I want to paint pictures with some bright beautiful colors, right now I am in a bit of a dark mood; maybe it has to do with the afternoon thunderstorms lately.  I am working to find the beauty and brilliance in these dark, gruesome colors. 

 Question to consider: Does the weather have an affect on your mood and how you create things?  I love to make stews during thunderstorms, there is just something soothing about having a stew simmer on the stove. 


Thursday, August 15, 2013

watching the clouds

So last Sunday Adam and spent an hour in the backyard hoping to see a shooting star, during the meteor shower.  Unfortunately, there was too much light pollution and we weren't able to see any shooting stars.

However we had a very pleasant evening in the backyard cuddling with Sterling and talking.

Tonight I was doing some exercises in the back yard and looked up to notice the beautiful sky.  I was so focused on other things that I almost missed the sight of the clouds, trees and the moon. The world is beautiful if you chose to see it that way.  We all need a reminder to focus on what we want instead of what we don't want.

Question to consider: What emotional state do you want to cultivate more of in your life?  My yoga teacher asked this in class today, my answer was trust.  My goal for my practice was to keep coming back to "trust."  Trust looks different for everyone, but most people can think of a time that they felt trust.  After you have that memory, think about what your posture was, how your breath felt and you may feel yourself shift closer to what you want.  Every moment that you cultivate what you want, is an accomplishment!

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Number 24

I have been cleaning out closets and cabinets the past couple of days.  Once I got started purging things from my closet, I moved on and just kept gathering things from all over the house.  I finally stopped because I wasn't sure I was thinking the process through anymore.  But I can think of a couple of things that I should add to this pile before we head to a donation center this weekend.  

So I gave away 55 things total which make up 24 different categories, for example I gave away 4 sweaters but that only counts as one category.  Honestly it feels really nice to get rid of things that we no longer have a use for.  It is difficult for me to give things away because I like the idea that I may put some of these things to use again.  The fact is, I want my life to have less clutter so I used that as my motivation for giving things away.

Here are some of the questions I asked myself when cleaning out closets and cabinets:

1. Did I forget that I had this?  (I forgot we had the popcorn popper, it really isn't what I wanted to make air popcorn, so I stopped using it.)
2. Does this still fit and is it flattering?  (I have a white sweater that I really love, but the last time I wore it, I wasn't comfortable because it just doesn't fit right. I have held on to that sweater for too long because of all the memories associated with it.  But I still have the memories!)
3. Have I used/worn this in a year?  (I gave away a couple of workout DVDs, that I bought in good faith but never used.  I have found other sources for workouts.)

Question to consider:  Do you periodically clean out your closets?  Is the process easy for you, or do you find it difficult?  I have to say I wasn't really enjoying the process, but I felt lighter once I had gathered things together to give away.

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Native New Mexican

It is Green Chile festival time!  This is my favorite time in August, because we buy enough green chile for the year.  (At least we hope it will be enough)  Honestly the heat in August is kicking my butt this year and I pretty much hide inside during the day.  So the smell of green chile takes me to some of my favorite memories of New Mexico.

I remember sitting out on the porch while my parents grilled the chiles and peeling them.  I remember the smell of all the roasters in the fall.  I remember the times when I was sick and my parents made us green chile stew.  My Dad's breakfast burritos are amazing!   

Scent is so powerful and I enjoyed the trip I took back to my New Mexico, today. 

Question to consider: What food do you miss from your hometown? 

Thursday, August 8, 2013

No TV?

Now that I have started to watch TV again, I have noticed a few things that I would like to share.  First I would like to explain where I was about a month ago: I used to watch television ALL the time.  Any time I was home alone there would a show on in the background, Adam and I used to eat and watch shows at the same time.  Honestly I would turn on the television as soon as I walked in the door, it was a habit.  I wasn't always on the couch watching TV but it was always on, it was always on the background.  

Now that I am allowing myself to watch TV, I find I don't enjoy it as much.  It takes me multiple sittings to get through a show.  For example, this weekend I kept having Adam pause Dexter, because I needed a break.  (It has some pretty intense moments, and I just didn't want to raise my anxiety. I did have some difficulty sleeping this weekend too. )  Even my guilty little pleasures (Pretty Little Liars, Revenge) don't have as much appeal for me anymore.  I find it difficult to sit through an entire show, mostly because I want to do so many other things. 

Tonight, I after a wonderful phone call; I went to turn on Netflix.  Since Adam is at yoga training, I figured I could take some time to watch a guilty little pleasure.  But as I was preparing my food, I decided I didn't even want to watch TV and would rather eat my meal and then settle down and read some comics.   It is really amazing to me, what a difference a month has made.  

I am curious to see what happens in the fall, when all the shows I follow start back up. I don't think watching television is necessarily a bad habit, I am really just interested in how TV affects me and my life.  I originally took this challenge to help get a better night's sleep, so I am documenting my other observations. 

Question to consider:  Have you ever taken a break from a habit, and what was the result in the long term?  I am thinking of giving up Facebook for a month, next.   But I am curious if I really broke my habit of TV or this is just the honeymoon period.

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Vegetarian meals

We got a package in the mail today, a rice cooker.  Adam has been talking about eating vegetarian more and more, so I have been experimenting with quinoa a lot.  However, I am not having much luck cooking the actual quinoa, it ends up mushy or crunchy.  We decided to invest in a cheap rice cooker, that will also replace our steamer.  As soon as we finish the green chile stew I made yesterday we will start eating more vegetarian meals.  

Question to consider: What are your favorite vegetarian recipes?  The couple of times I have eliminated meat from our diet I have not felt well.  I tend to crave lots of protein, so any suggestions would be helpful.  I am not planning to become a vegetarian, just to eat a couple vegetarian meals a week. 

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Stained glass window

I love this window!  I have spent all day cooking and working on our scrapbook, this beautiful scene gave me a chance to exhale.

Question to consider: Have you taken a moment to pay attention to your breathing today?  Yesterday, I was dealing with a tense situation and didn't realize how much I was holding my breath until the situation was resolved.  Best exhale ever!  I can only imagine how much easier the situation would've been if I had been aware of my breathing.

Monday, August 5, 2013

Facebook

I have a love/hate relationship with Facebook.  Adam gets frustrated with how often I check Facebook.  The night we landed in Chicago, I check Facebook as soon as we landed.  I was on autopilot.  :-) 

I saw a status update from my cousin talking about sitting in a bar at the Chicago airport.  She was on a layover, and was only in town for a few more minutes.  Still I quickly ran though the airport to see her.

The last time I saw her was my wedding 8 years ago.  This never would have happened without social media, and I think it is pretty incredible for lots of reasons.  Plus I finally got to meet her husband!

Question to consider: how do you feel about Facebook?  I said I have a love/hate relationship with it.  I love seeing all the amazing things that my friends and family are doing, but on the other hand it does make me feel disconnected from reality.  Facebook isn't the whole story.

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Day 50

Halfway through 100 days of handstand. I had originally planned to try an balance away from the wall this evening, but I was having some issues kicking up.  

July homework

On the first of July I chose to focus on some things for the entire month.  Believe it or not these six things were on my mind a lot during this past month and I kept asking myself if I was doing these things sincerely every day.

1.  Rest
2.  Sleep
3.  Eat and drink properly
4. Live Passionately
5. Play
6. Relax
Around the middle of the month, I realized that trying to focus on six things was really difficult for me.  While I tried to keep all these things in mind everyday I really chose to focus on sleep, rest and relaxing.  I wish I could say that after 30 days I have no problem with these three things.  But I am stilling working and still practicing.  I still have a lot of work to do, and this challenge is not going away for me. 
I still haven't watched any TV since July 1st.  Adam and I did watch three movie this month, but no TV.  I am a little nervous about watching TV again, since I do think it really improved my sleep.  I think I may reintroduce it very slowly, and not watch TV before bed.  
Last night I was feeling very sentimental thinking about last August.  I decided to look up what was going on exactly one year ago.  I found one of my favorite memories from last year was on this date a year ago.  It also reminds me that Adam and I need to go to the Butterfly Center again.   That was truly a magical day, I will always have that memory.