It seems crazy that I am busier now than when I had a full time job. But I am busier, I wake up earlier and stay up later. I have learned to rest, and the pleasure of taking Sterling for a long walk. I have been doing my physical practice in both the morning and evening, and no longer find myself watching the clock and worrying about getting to bed at a certain time.
I have written before about what a crazy ride this past year has been. But my teacher really pointed it out to me in class today how much has changed in the last year. If a little bird had told me last year that in 2014 I would be planning a trip to Nepal, all by myself. I would not have believed it was even possible. I think back on all the things I have done in the last year and I can't wait to tackle the next hurdle. It has all been building momentum. I told Adam that I keep bracing for impact and waiting for the next tragedy. Now I know that is all wrong, it is about building momentum and doing what needs to be done. Showing myself that I can do more and go places I never dreamed. I am stumbling around, but the more I stumble around, the more comfortable I am with it. The more I realize even when I fall I am still okay.
"Fall seven times, get up eight."