Friday, February 28, 2014

Tribe

My upcoming trip is becoming more and more real.  Today in class my teacher was telling a story about how he felt reuniting with his "tribe" after some time apart.   I got pretty overwhelmed and emotional thinking about how much people can grow and change in a short amount of time.  It was a good feeling, overwhelmed doesn't have a bad meaning in my life.

I really love my life, I love my friends and my family.  I am so grateful for each and everyone of them.  I am excited to leave and come back together.  I am excited to hear about the changes and growth in their lives.   

Most likely the time is going to go by pretty fast and I will be sitting here typing while Sterling plays with his ball before I know it.  Right now it seems like such a long time to be away from everyone I know and love.  

Question to consider: Who is your "tribe?"

Thursday, February 27, 2014

Just do it!

In yoga teacher training someone asked the question: "What would you tell someone preparing to teach their first yoga class?"  The guest teacher responded "Just do it!"  There was so much power in her words.  We often over think and get so caught up in our heads and the story that we forget to do things.   We forget that it is okay to fall down, it is okay to realize we have a lot to learn.  The important thing is to take some action, to start living the life you want.  To start being the person you want to be, even if it is for just a single breath.  Just start doing it, start practicing!

I saw this post on a Facebook page  "A peaceful warrior."  The images and the words speak to me.  Right now I am so excited about the opportunity to go to Nepal.  There are moments when I am scared out of my mind, and everything starts going a hundred miles an hour.  "I don't know the language, I don't know what I will eat, what if I get sick....."  It can go on forever, then I remember to take a breath.  I remember it is going to be okay; and every time I fall I will stand back up. 

Question to consider: What is one thing you really want to do?  What action can you take today to make that happen? 

Monday, February 24, 2014

S is for....

S is for SMILE!  Adam ordered this wonderful butternut squash, apple, cinnamon and chile soup.  It was so delicious and I am going to recreate it one of these days, probably not until the fall since the temperatures are starting to climb.    

The presentation of the dish, just made both of us light up with smiles and discuss all of the things that "S" can stand for.   It truly is the little things that make everything different, it is just a practice to notice them.

Question to consider: What does "S" stand for in your life?   

Friday, February 21, 2014

Chaos

My house feels like chaos right now.  I have piles and lists of stuff to take with me to Nepal scattered everywhere.  I am so lucky I have an Eagle Scout in the house to help me pack and figure out what I really need to take with me and what isn't necessary.  Plus he loves playing tetris and can help get all the "needs" into my backpack!

I have never traveled by myself for an extended period of time and I am feeling a little uncertain about a lot of things.  I am certain of some things and that is what I keep reminding myself when I get freaked out.   I am certain that I can do this!  I am certain that I am smart enough and have the ability to remain calm in lots of situations (actually remaining calm is another issue).  

I am so excited to go on this adventure!

Question to consider: Do you make lists before packing for a trip or do you just wing it?  

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

Certainty

I have not been posting as regularly because I have been very busy getting ready for a new adventure.  I am getting ready to go to Nepal to teach English to Buddist Monks.  I am going to be leaving very soon and I am terribly excited.  I have some posts scheduled to post after I leave, since I do not know if I will have access to electricity or the internet while I am gone.  

Ten years ago I packed up my life and moved to California to work as a full time volunteer with the Selma Fire Department.  I remember the excitement and the terror associated with that decision and that move.  It ended up being one of the best years of my life, and besides marrying Adam the best decision I ever made.  I learned an enormous amount about myself in that year.

How did I make this decision?  I made it in an instant, my teacher suggested I go to Nepal to teach English and I said "yes."  When he asked me the question, there was no hesitation that I could handle going to the other side of the world by myself.  There was no doubt and no fear.   I can only describe that moment as certainty.   I remember calling Adam and told him "I am going to Nepal!"   I am so excited about this journey and every moment that I start to feel overwhelmed and stressed.  I go back to how I felt in the moments I decided to go on this adventure.   

Question to consider: When was the last time you felt complete certainty about a major decision?  The last major decision I made before this was to quit my job, and for a long time I had mixed feelings.  I think complete certainty is a very rare gift, and I can't wait to unwrap my present!   

Sunday, February 16, 2014

Sterling Sunday

Poor conehead has an ear infection...he is still needing healing energy!

That is my Godson watching Sterling, so grateful for a full house this weekend.

Friday, February 14, 2014

Valentines's Day

I made Adam a vegetarian dinner tonight, I love how the acorn squash looks like a heart.

Question to consider: What did you do for Valentine's Day?

Thursday, February 13, 2014

Number 2

Adam and I went back to Albuquerque and had a wonderful visit with both of our families.  The highlight of the weekend was holding our niece, Zoe!   Seriously Saturday was a magical day for this Aunt (and Adam too).    We got to go to the circus with Adam's family including our niece and nephew.   We spent the afternoon with these two wonderful children and Adam even got to teach Wesley some Math.  

I love this photo because it also has a great framed photo of Wesley!

Just a perfect moment in time!

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

Strength

I just completed a six week session on aerial silks!  There were so many times during these past six weeks that both me and my friends would talk about how weak we felt.  We contiuously challenaged our bodies and our minds.  It was so much fun to learn what we were capable of and to celebrate each other's success.   Sometimes a sincere attempt will reveal how strong and capable you are.

The truth is we are much stronger than we believe!  

Question to consider: What activity makes you feel strong?

Monday, February 10, 2014

Raining

It is raining today and it reflects my mood.  It is heartbreaking to watch someone you love be in pain.  Unfortunately I saw a lot of pain this weekend, last year was terrible for my family and the ripples are still there. It serves as a good reminder to watch what stones you throw in the water, the ripples last.

I have learned so much about changing emotional states and noticing emotional states, however recently I have learned how much I have to learn. My teacher makes it look so effortless to break someone's state; he is fearless.  I am grateful to have my teachers in my life to show me a path.

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Inspiration

I have been feeling pretty amazing lately, I am thankful for that.  I know Adam is pretty thankful for it to.  I would like to remember this state, because it is a state that I want to practice.  This feels like who I am.  I am the person that is happy to get up in the morning, that sings at the top of her lungs in the car, who learns to kick with some force, whose heart aches when she goes to volunteer, who sees both the beauty and the pain in other people's lives. I am someone that enjoys breathing.  (Seriously, close your eyes and take a really deep breath; it is healing.)

This is the state that I feel inspired in, I want to edit photos, write and work with glass.  It is hard to sit still and so I do the dishes and clean the kitchen because it makes me smile.  Amazing isn't the right word, however it will do.  

Question to consider: What word do you use to describe your favorite state, not your habitual state but your favorite state?  I am going to go with divine. 


Number 13 (20)

I wish this was a much better photo of the food, it really wasn't yellowish.  Adam and I went to dinner with friends at the Brooklyn Athletic Club.  It was wonderful, we enjoyed the food, the company and the atmosphere.  Adam and I want to go back, I promise to take a better photo of the food and all the games outside. 

Question to consider: Which do you prefer Bocce or Ping Pong?

Monday, February 3, 2014

The action

I have been working on a project for Adam, and because of the progress I have been thinking a lot about a specific topic my teachers talk about.  "The result is none of your business!"

There are plenty of ways to look at this statement, and they have both given me plenty of stories to get this idea to sink in my head.  But I truly struggle with what it means to fall in love with the action, to trust the universe, to trust nature to show you the result.  (It is a whole different practice not judging things as success and failure.)  

So I got a vision of a bead in my head to make for Adam, and my first thought was is it even possible?  So I started drawing, and planning and thinking on paper.  My hope was that if I could draw I could make the design with glass.  So here are a couple of the attempts of learning to draw a Chinese character with hot glass.  

With my first couple of attempts I was really excited, and had to remember the beads had to cool before I saw the results.  The thing about working with glass is that the bead can look completely different in the flame, so letting it cool, letting nature do its thing, is tough for me.  I love instant results and working with glass has taught me about patience in a way I never expected.  

For me making a bead is the perfect metaphor for falling in love with the action, for letting nature show me the result.  Once I take the bead out of the flame, my work is done, and I will see the result in a few hours. (Thankfully it is only a few hours.)  

I can't control the results, I can only control my actions; for an instant today I got it.  I saw the glowing bead in the flame and knew I had been completely present during its creation and now was the time to let go, and trust the results.

Question to consider: What is a concept that you hear all the time, that puzzles you? 

Sunday, February 2, 2014