So I had some good moments of confusion in the night, I thought one of my nurses was one of my good friends, and I started telling her how excited I was for her trip. I had the moment when I forgot I was still attached to my IV. Mostly the confusion is about reminding myself that I am still able to get out of bed, I can still make decisions for myself even if my mind is cloudy, and that it is totally okay to be confused once in a while.
People generally treat you with kindness and are very gentle about correcting your mistakes. I tend to worry about how judgemental I think people are, I have slowly realized I am really the judgemental one, I tend to judge myself, and judge myself harshly. It isn't other people, it is really my inner conversation that is judgemental and unkind. So what happens when I stop listening to that voice, when I stop giving that voice power to make me feel poorly about myself for making a mistake?
What happens is I care more about being happy than being right. In fact I enjoy the times I am wrong, because I see it as a lesson on how to improve instead of some sort of proof that I am a horrible person. (I don't write that lightly, I really used to believe I was a horrible person.)
Question to consider: What is your inner voice like? When do you chose to listen to it?