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Getting away

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Sometimes life feels like it is too much, sometimes I feel like I am being given more then I possibly have the ability to handle.   So in moments like those I usually grit my teeth and find a way to keep going, to realize that I am will discover new ways of handling things and eventually what needs to be done will get accomplished.  
However last week, I did something completely different when it felt like too much.  When I noticed that I was no longer sleeping well, I was unable to eat properly and I was not taking care of myself.  I went away.   I handled the critcal things, doctor's appointments, vet appointments, job commitments and decided the rest could wait for me to get home.   I went away just a few hours drive to the Austin area, had dinner with a friend and then spent the next bit of time alone.
I came home feeling a little bit more settled and clear. A lot of the things that were stressing me out are still here, I just feel bigger than the "problems" now.   I a…

Sterling Sunday

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Sterling Sunday

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The sun is out

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It started off as a gloomy, rainy day.  I drove to the doctor's office falling in love with the storm clouds wondering if a lightening storm was in the future, and as I drove home the sky was beginning to clear.  I walked out of the doctor's office in a pretty gloomy mood and sittting in traffic watching the clouds clear gave me some perspective on how fast things can change.  In that moment I may have been in pain and frustrated that my energy is low, however I know that it will change.  

I had an idea for a project this morning and maybe some extra rest is just the thing that I need to really figure out the next steps to take.   Getting to type up my blog with Sterling sleeping next to me is pretty freaking awesome.  I am just going to take this one moment at a time and let my body heal as quickly as it will.   I am not on anyone's time scale, the days I feel good I will be out and about doing my work and on the days I want to take care of myself I will make space for th…

The park!!!

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I took this photo about a week and a half after my surgery.  Sterling and I walked all the way to the park my our house, (on a good day it is about a ten minute walk).  I took it as a sign that my body was healing well and I was ready to get back to work.   So I went back to work, teaching and visiting my Hospice Patients.  Slowly my body started whispering (take more time), and then it started talking and finally it started screaming at me.  I heard my body whispering, and I decided it was just growing pains, and healing is not always painless.  THe good thing about the body is that it continues to speak up until you start to listen.   I am pretty stubborn, so it tends to have to get pretty loud.

So I took another week away from my patients.  I sent a request out to all my friend for some help with basic errands and tasks.   People offered so much support, they came by, they called me, they offered to do things I never would have even thought about.   There was a moment when a frien…

Sterling Sunday

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A view

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The Greek philosopher Epictetus said more than 2,000 years ago: "People are disturbed, not by things (that happen to them), but by the principles and opinions which they form concerning (those) things. When we are hindered, or disturbed, or grieved, let us never attribute it to others, but to ourselves; that is, to our own principles and opinions."
I have been thinking about this quote a lot lately.  As I talk to people, as I figure out how to manage the pain and fear associated with my surgery.   As I focus on being kind to myself, which generally means I need to stop pushing myself so much.   So why do I push myself?  Why do I smile through the pain?  Why do I agree to a fully scheduled weekend, when I know I just want to rest?   
Appreances, wanting to be more than I am.  Worries that if I just say I am going to sit at home for another week, that I won't be enough.  That is all my story, my mind.  Everyone has been so supportive and helpful, if I simply ask for what I n…

Smile!

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Two images that brought a giant smile to my face!   Just a shout out to the blog's beginnings.

Tea!

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When I was in China, back in August our translator, Richard, gave all of the group some parting gifts.  One of which was a block (cake) of Pu'er tea.  I remember looking at the tea, and wondering how to break it apart, how to prepare the tea.  I had seen tea bags, loose tea leaves, tea pearls but I had no experience with how this tea was packaged.  Adam decided to research it when we got home, and told me he found a video, but it would take time.  

When I returned from China my focus was on preparing for the next trip to Nepal and so the packages of tea were placed in the cupboard with the other tea.   Secretly I feared that I would forget about the tea and Richard's wonderful gift would go unappreciated.  However like so many gifts in life, the tea came back into my awareness at the perfect time.  
Someone suggested I drink more Pu'er tea to aid in my recovery, and I suddenly had the time to devote to opening up the tea cake without harming the tea leaves.   So Saturday m…

Sterling Sunday

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