I have been thinking about this quote a lot lately. As I talk to people, as I figure out how to manage the pain and fear associated with my surgery. As I focus on being kind to myself, which generally means I need to stop pushing myself so much. So why do I push myself? Why do I smile through the pain? Why do I agree to a fully scheduled weekend, when I know I just want to rest?
Appreances, wanting to be more than I am. Worries that if I just say I am going to sit at home for another week, that I won't be enough. That is all my story, my mind. Everyone has been so supportive and helpful, if I simply ask for what I need to help when I need it. I trust someone would provide it, sometimes I am afraid to ask. I am afraid to be vulnerable.
I see so many things when I look out these windows, and I feel at peace. In this moment there is nothing that I need. However as I go about my day and still need to listen to my body, I need to eat, drink, sleep, play and rest. Right now all I want is to create the best atmosphere for healing which means I need to ask for what I need help with.