Thursday, November 5, 2015

Comfort

I started to feel poorly, and I kept going, I kept going until the poorly turned into something a lot worse.  So I took some time to rest and figured things would get better, and they got a little better but not much better.   So I kept going back to the doctor, and eventually she ran out of ideas and referred me to a specialist.

So I went to a specialist and learned this was not going to be a quick fix.  It would get better on it's own time, not my time, not a doctor's time, the body would heal according to it's time.   I was given a new diet and a list of herbs to experiment with, to see what made a difference. A few more tests were ordered and I felt like my life had been completely changed.   

The scientist in me understands there is a difference between causation and correlation.  The scientist in me wants to know the mechanism of why something works, wants to look at the chemistry and the medical studies.  However I get to simply experiment with what makes my body feel better, what helps me heal.   I get to read books, and information about why something might be helpful or hurtful, in the end it all comes down to me.   If it works, maybe I will understand why, it doesn't matter I need to accept that it works.

This experience has been completely overwhelming and I am not out of the woods yet, in some ways I haven't entered the woods.  I don't know how long it will take and I have chosen to ask for a break from my jobs and my teaching so that I can heal.   

I am focusing on things that bring me comfort, like warm drinks, warm hugs and cute adorable pillows!

Question to consider: What brings you comfort?  

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