The past few weeks I have been having a lot of anxiety attacks in the grocery store (a common trigger). Grocery shopping, food preparation and even eating have been a source of overstimulating my nervous system. As Thanksgiving approached I grew even more and more anxious. I was running out of recipe ideas with limited ingredients and was stressed about going to a Thanksgiving meal and not being able to eat anything that was provided.
There are no words to describe the gratitude I felt when my friend, Victoria, who was hosting Thanksgiving told me she had made some food especially for me folloing my diet and so I had no need to pack a lunch. It was the first time in weeks, since I started this elimination diet that someone had prepared food for me. It gave me the gift of being able to be a guest. Adam was there when I got the message and I just started crying.
In addition to allowing me to be a guest, she also gave me some hope and inspiration to get back to the kitchen and keep experimenting. To keep going! She reminded me that I am worth a lot more then this illness is telling me I am worth.
It opened the door for me to notice all the opportunities being given to me for someone to take are of me. Adam helping to bundle me up and come up with new ideas to help keep me warm. Adam reminding me to laugh and to get out of the house to see friends even if I got tired, even if I spend the next couple hours resting.
I am so thankful for Victoria this weekend for being such a magnificent host and creating space for me to heal and be loved.
Question to consider: What are you thankful for today?