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Space

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There is a space between making a decision and finally seeing the outcome of that decision.  Sometimes the space feels like it is barely noticeable and sometimes it stretches out and feels like an eternity.  Waiting, prepping and trusting that when the time comes I will be able to actually follow through with that decision.  
What am I talking about?  Adam and I made the decision months ago to move, actually we had been talking about the decision for a long time, but we didn't know how Sterling would handle navigating a new space without his vision.  When Sterling passed away there was nothing holding us to our home, except we didn't have a place to go yet.  New jobs could potentially take us to different parts of the city.  The focus was on  tiny steps, cleaning out closets, going through stuff in the attic, many trips to Goodwill, half-price books, etc...   
Tomorrow we are making a furniture donation, and we recently moved things around to get ready for that.  There are vacan…

Sunshine Sunday

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What does it equal?

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Adam and I are going through a massive purge in our home, working to get rid of about two-thirds of our stuff.  It has been interesting going through some of the stuff that I have held on to throughout the years.  
I recently stumbled on a high school notebook filled with Anatomy and Physiology notes.  I really enjoyed that class but I couldn't understand why in the world I hung on to this notebook.  When I opened the notebook the notes on pain were dog eared.  My Anatomy and Physiology teacher had spent years researching pain, and therefore a lot of these notes were pretty extensive about which nerves are responsible for transmitting pain, and the various biochemical reactions.  However the thing that caught my eye was "chronic pain = bad."  
It was in a section of notes comparing the difference between acute pain and chronic pain, discussing the lack of homeostasis involved with chronic pain.  I immediately started laughing and told Adam apparently I held on to this note…

Sunshine Sunday

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Invisible

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This post has been simmering for a couple of days, a recap of the race weekend.  I didn't want to rush it and this past week has been a little bit of hustling to catch up and finding time for recovery.

The first race was on Saturday, so my alarm went off around 3:00 AM, we were supposed to be in the corrals at about 4:00, and it takes me a bit of time to get moving in the morning.  After Ashley and Adam got dressed, we headed downstairs to grab me a steamed milk and to make our way to the race area.  It was pretty chilly and thankfully Ashley had bought a blanket for us to sit on in the corral and to wrap ourselves up in.  The official start time was at 5:30, but since I was in the last corral we wouldn't start until a bit later.   Ashley and I spent the time chatting and Adam practiced different breathing to stay warm.  
We made it to the start line, heard a little banter and we started.  It took time to find a place in the crowds we were comfortable, and watched people run a…

7 miles in...

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Way back in 2014, I looked at Ashley and said "I will do it again."  Seven miles in, 10 miles in, 13.1 miles in and even shortly after the finish when some of my tendons were protesting and I was having trouble walking.   I had no idea what was coming, optimistically, foolishly, happily (all these words and more come to mind) less then a month later we signed up for another two races back to back.  I recently looked back at my journal from that day and there was no doubt that come 2016 Ashley and I would be crossing the finish line together for both the 10K and half-marathon.   
I spent a great deal of time feeling angry with that aspect of myself, that woman that imagined and believed I was capable of so much.  She made this plan, she expected my health and fitness to continue an upward trajectory.  She was in a place filled with light and was able to expand her focus to countless possibilities.  In a few months I would feel plunged into a pit of narrow focus, as health beca…

Sunshine Sunday

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Happy New Year!