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Focusing on the sincere questions

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I was in Vermont a number of weeks ago, and haven't quite processed it all, so stay tuned for a post on the Spoonie Collective and my experience.  However one of the people I met, Joseph, is the founder and executive director at The You Rock Foundation.  Grateful and curious are not large enough words to describe what it was like talking to Joseph and hearing a bit of his story.  One part of this foundation is to have people post selfies with their message and mission.   One of the signs that you can print out is "I Matter Because...."  There is plenty of blank space to fill in your answer.  

I was really glued to scrolling through these photos and reading peoples different expressions, one night when I couldn't sleep.  The next morning, I woke up and did my meditation and some of those signs popped into my head, I immediately started crying.  So my practice that morning was crying, just allowing the tears to fall.  
Later while I was driving to work, I got a bit cur…

Sunshine Sunday

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House is all packed up and feels a bit different.  10+ years of amazing and heartbreaking memories, glad I still get to walk with this man through it all.  I really love him

Sunshine Sunday

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Sometimes I am just flat out scared....

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Three years ago this month, I left for an adventure.  I traveled to the other side of the world to Nepal and completely fell in love.   I fell in love with the people there, the mountains, the lake and traveling by myself.  If you click on the link to three years ago, you will see my smiling excited face.

Fast forward three years and I am preparing my first trip by myself since my diagnosis. I am going on a retreat in Vermont hosted by Suffering the Silence, called the Spoonie collective.  Honestly I am excited but I am also scared and my mind is making up hundreds of stories.  
I have searched for every possible excuse to cancel this trip and Adam keep nudging me forward.  He keeps encouraging me and telling me I can do it.  It is going to be a leap into something I am really terrified to do, everything is set up for success and I still feel like I won't be enough.  
However, I love traveling and this is an amazing opportunity.  I am so lucky to have been chosen to attend and co…